Friday, October 1, 2010
The first photo is my little Angel Mia, the second photo is of Little Miss Emma and I.
Well it's that time of year where I start to get down. It will be 12yrs November 13, that our nightmare began with the loss of our precious Mia Ann, it doesn't seem like it's been 12yrs, where has the time gone.
My heart still aches to have my little girl back in my arms. Whenever I am around my nieces or my girlfriends daughters it breaks my heart. It's all I can do to keep myself together. Sometimes I feel ( I don't know what the right word is, jealous/angry) that they have their daughters to do things with, while mine is in heaven and I'm all alone.
I wanted to do all those things they are doing with their daughters and didn't get the chance to do. They are going on first dates, college, one of them is getting married, it's just not fair. I won't get to be a grandma, not only have I lost my daughter but I have also lost grandchildren.
I try not to get myself down like this but there are times when I just don't have the strength to keep myself going. For those of you who have children, love them more than life, let them know how important they are to you. Tell them you love them every single day, because tomorrow may not come. I would give anything to have another day with my precious daughter Mia. I know I will see her in heaven some day, and when that day comes I will be the happiest woman in the world.
I take care of a girlfriends daughter Little Miss Emma Marie, she makes my world a better place and helps me more than anyone knows. She just turned 3 and she is a ham. I love her like she's my own. She calls me minnie because she can't say Malinda, and lately she has been calling me minnie mommy lol. She tells me I'm her best friend & she loves me with all her heart. She puts a smile on my face every single day and I thank God for bringing her into my life, because this time of the year I need that more than anything.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
We had some quality time this weekend. Knotty took me out to Texas Roadhouse for a wonderful steak, loaded sweet potato with marshmallows and salad. I had a Rattlesnake drink that was delicious.
After we enjoyed our meal we decided to walk around Bass Pro and see the large Aquarium they have inside. It was amazing. The fish in there were huge, I know the catfish that was in there had to be at least 25-30lbs.
the best part of the night was when we got home Knotty and I just sat out in the truck talking. It's been a long time since we have just really sat and talked and I enjoyed it tremendously. I am looking forward to the next time we go and and just enjoy each others company. We need to take the time to reconnect with one another.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
I was installing Windows 7 on my laptop last night and ran into some problems.........which resulted in me getting to bed around 4 am. Once I laid down I couldn't sleep, so....I got back up and worked on the laptop some more.
Little Emma arrived around 7:30 so I really had my hands full, I love taking care of her and she knows how to keep me on my toes. Mom and dad called and wanted to bring some chili over for lunch.......what a break for me! Dennis was home today as well which I truly enjoyed. He told me to lay down for an hr before mom and dad were suppose to get there, and let me tell you I really needed that.
Mom and dad's chili was fantastic, it's always nice when you don't have to cook, after we let our bellies settle mom wanted to try out our Wii. We all had so much fun and wouldn't you know it my mom kicked my butt in bowling lol. I think she surprised herself. She said she is going to have to come over more often just so she can play on the Wii.
It truly was a wonderful day having mom and dad over to share lunch and spend some quality time together. I'm looking forward to the next time we can all just sit down together and enjoy each others company.......and I have to work on my bowling, because next time I'm going to out play mom lol. It truly warms my heart to have such a loving family, I just wanted to share this with you all. I hope your day was a good one!!!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
One More Day
12 years ago we said goodbye and I thought you should know, my heart still aches for you each day, I didn't want to let you go. You were only here a little while, not long enough for me, taken away to soon from us I'm sure you can agree. If I could have one more day with you, the first thing I would do is hold you tight with all my might and wish my dream come true, that this was just a nightmare a dream is all it was, and wake up holding my baby girl my gift from up above. I love and miss you MiAngel
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I start my liver diet tomorrow. I hope it helps, I am really tired of being tired and sick all the time. No more soft drinks, breads, fruits, just low fight meat, some vegs, eggs. I will have to find some recipes for this type of diet. Wish me luck.......I'll need it lol.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Our Little MeeMoo
This is our daughter Mia Ann. She was born on August 23, 1985. What a wonderful blessing to our family.
Mia is no longer with us now, she left this world on November 15, 1998.
Mia was a beautiful 13 year old girl who wanted to save the world.
She loved to sing, dance, draw, and act, but most of all she loved to take care of children.
Mia was a second mother to her two brothers Kristoffer and Eric. She simply adored them both.
Our oldest son is handicapped with cerebal palsy and whenever he needed help Mia was always there
wanting to help take care of him. She took a CPR class so she could be certified,
in order to help take care of the children at her school,
while the parents and teachers could have their conferences.
We miss Mia and the many firsts she never got the privilage to do,
going out on her first date, her first kiss, prom, graduation, her dream wedding and becoming a mother.
I wonder what she would be doing today, what career would she have chosen out of all the things she loved to do.
Mia always said mommy I'm going to do it all. I believe she would have if she were still here.
Now Mia is a beautiful
watching over us, until we are reunited once again. How wonderful that day will be.
I put a insert in a home paper describing how I felt and I want to share that with you.
I'm not trying to bring anyone down.
I just hope that you live each day to the fulliest, and
let your loved ones know everyday how much they mean to you,
because tomorrow may never come.
Parents who have lost children never recover completely.
It changes your life and how you look at life differently.
The pain never really goes away, we become numb in order to survive, that is what I have done.
I do cherish my family and friends and let them know all the time,
without them I don't know what I would have done.
I just wanted to share my beautiful daughter with you. I love you Meemoo my angel baby.